Monday, October 26, 2009

"Dear John"


This is post 101 for me here in my little world O' Blog...


Why no fanfare for my 100th post?

Simply....

I'm a bit deflated.


Not because I don't love blogging or reading others blogs


I do!

mean hundreds of hours absorbing and sharing ideas have not been wasted!

no...

it's gotten me off my tush, out of my rutt and into a newer and better me for the most part.


but I've been feeling that I'm not so sure what this road I'm on is for...


I mean, what kind of blog do I have?



Is it crafty?

no. not enough anyway.


Is it a way to reach my family that lives miles away?

not really. I don't post pics of my kids or share the innermost workings of my family.


I guess this is the space where I share my thoughts.


The thoughts for me.

What I love, hate and need.


This blog originally started as a bit of therapy.

To help me overcome my dad's death.


And most of the time it is.

But lately, it just reminds me that he's not here and I'm not celebrating his life in print.

I'm avoiding his death and the feelings that hurt.


so no more.

Every Monday I will write my father a letter.

A "Dear John" letter

--apt since his name was John.


And trust me, they may be sad.

I still cry alot.


but there are happy things I'd like to share too.

And I will.


Thanks for listening....


5 comments:

Heather said...

That's a great idea Kelly - I can't imagine losing my dad - this summer was pretty scary when he had a stroke, and that had me in tears and was painful, so losing him I can't even comprehend. I like your idea of Dear John letters and hope they help. All the best, Heather

Susie from Bienvenue said...

What a wonderful tribute to your Daddy. Im so sorry that you are hurting and I pray that this will bring you some comfort. I know the feeling of loss too....{{{hugs}}}}

Miller Racing Family said...

This is one of my favorite blogs to read. What ever you choose to blog about is enjoyable to read. Have a wonderful day!

erica said...

Do what you gotta do girl! Sounds like a great therapy!

Karen said...

Oh I thought for a minute that was going to be it - no more blog - that didn't make me happy!
Glad to hear that you will be working through things that have been hanging around there in the back of your mind, and that you will still be sharing your days with us - crafty, happy or otherwise.